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Thoughts on covid and the lessons of being a cancer survivor.
I am a spiritual person, perhaps a religious one depending on your definition of such. Yesterday, I came across this quote which, in my mind refers to all of us. This year has been exhausting. My 2 and 1/2 years in active cancer treatment and surgeries, etc was another exhausting time so you would think I would have some wisdom. Here goes…
“I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten”
I have learned throughout my life that faith gets us through anything. Whether it is faith in God or your own ability, strength and talent or those of other people, it all ends up being faith. We have not yet elected the next president. It is October 2020 and it is anything can happen time. If you had asked me a year ago if America would have come through an epidemic as well as possible instead of failing on so many fronts I would have believed that America, above all other countries would have a handle on this. Wow! What a difference a year makes.
What did I learn so many years ago?
1) Don’t sweat the small stuff.
2) Think about how you want your life to be in 2 years not tomorrow.
3) Where are your feet? That is all that is going on!
4) Don’t get ahead of yourself.
The restored years for me?
some of them have been the last 11 years or the last 9 since all of that yuch ended 9 years ago. But a lot of those restored years? The ones I prayed for and hoped for?
I got them during Covid.
Because my family was together and enjoyed being together. No one was asking too much. I wasn’t being pulled this way and that by everyone’s activities. We were homebound and enjoyed each other, and both girls took time to get to know each other again, and in a deeper way. They looked at their futures and made decisions with time on their sides.
Nothing was rushed.
And that is still the truth.
When you can’t do much running around, you get to take your time.
Take your time and the years are restored.
I have mixed feelings in October.
On one hand I want to be involved and on the other I am so grateful I am no longer in it. The constant battle to feel well, keep up with life, heal, chemo, surgery, get well, heal again was a never ending cycle. I still have side effects. I have ways it is difficult to move due to surgery. My hands get cold and burn.
Please don’t avoid your checkups –doctor’s offices are actually really efficient these days because they can only have so many people there at the same time.
But I am here and I get to feel all of it.
Thank you God for restoring my years and giving me the best life. I never could have imagined 1 years ago today that I would get all these gifts–or even still be alive to enjoy them.
PS I lived large throughout my treatment–check the archives of this blog back to Oct 09 when it began.
A Note to My Readers:
To those of you who wondered where I was, why I wasn’t posting as often and why I had no wise words for you: I must confess it was because I was using it all for myself and my family, and felt, for a long time, I had little to give away. Now I must because that is what gives me energy. I think back in March I when all shut down I had already been sick for a month and a half and I was deeply concerned about my NY based daughter who was living in a 5th floor walk up and my high school senior daughter who watched all the fun of senior year get taken away. My husband was also as ill as I was and the youngest was sick too. It was all I could do to keep us fed and feeling a bit normal. We coughed from late January to April 10th. You can read about it in these posts… https://angeliquelamour.com/the-things-that-change-us/ and https://angeliquelamour.com/family-time-during-quarantine/ and https://angeliquelamour.com/morale/ There are a couple more but you get the gist here.
Wear a mask, Vote and Stay distanced.
If you want life to return to normal the numbers of infections must decrease–